Seeing My Social Worker Again

I am now back to seeing my Social Worker Josephine. It feels almost forever since the last time that I saw her and that was back in January. She told me that she came back to the office in March. I asked her why she did not get in touch with me then, she indicated that she had been busy.

It was nice seeing her.

I told Josephine that Mike my "Mental Health Helping" Partner has plans to discharge me from his caseload when he sees me in June. I told her that just the feeling of losing services thru Durham Mental Health Services, makes me feel really scared. Almost a feeling of loneliness. I have been so dependent on his services (nearly 5 years now). I have the feeling that Mike feels that I am "stable" in his own mind, because I am in a good mood every time that he sees me. I guess this could be because he does not see all that goes on at home sometimes, or maybe sub-consciously I hold allot in.

I know that "yes" I am probably more stable than I was 5 years and 9 years ago. But stable per se to the point that I do not need any other mental health services in order to remain a functioning part of society. I feel that if I lose Mike's services altogether that I might get lost some where or that I might one day crash and just the thought of the possibility of this happening , just the knowing of him dropping me from his case-load and knowing that I cannot just pick up the phone and call him - makes me feel sort of helpless.

I do understand that services when it comes to Mental Health are being cut all over. But I do know that the government also some where in Durham Region did give a sizeable amount of money into Mental Health. Could that be at the hospital?

Well, Josephine said that she is going to call and talk Mike. We will just have to wait and see. I would like to try and start going to his groups again. Just wish that ODSP would cover the costs of the groups. That is $20.00 a month... Oh well... they won't because his because DMHS groups are not covered by an Inter Disciplinary Team. I just got to remember each day of the week that goes by , in order to go to the groups though. I seem to sometimes lose and/or forget what day it is from day to day.

Will just have to wait for my appt with Mike June 2nd to come around and see what transpired with his conversation with Josephine.

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