Psychiatrist - Medications

I am seriousily considerating over the next few months making an appt with my Pdoc, Dr. K. It has been at least since January the last time that I saw her. It may be time again to chat about the possibility of medication adjustment, but not a type of medication that is going to affect my thyroid to the extent that I am going to gain an enormous amount of weight.

My moods the past year appear to get easily destabilised by people, and my buttons are so easily pushed. I try to ignore what people say and/or let it go thru one ear and out the other. Often I hold it inside too and just wait for a moment that I can talk to somebody about what is bothering me about what was said and/or done to me.

There is only so much I can take when it comes to people picking on me and so much that I can ignore and/or hold in. I was doing so well the past year or so at holding things in, but not anymore....

I am starting to wonder if maybe I am developing an immunity to my medication, after all I have been on it for over 3 years. I am just so concerned about going on new Psych meds because of how it affects the weight. As it is, since I have been steadily on Psych meds I have gained over 40 lbs in 9 years. (difficult to take off).

As for others that read this blog, what types of mood stabilizers and anti-psychotics are you on that work for you and do they affect your weight? I am on Topomax and Seroquel. Would like to hear from others.

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Seeing My Social Worker Again

I am now back to seeing my Social Worker Josephine. It feels almost forever since the last time that I saw her and that was back in January. She told me that she came back to the office in March. I asked her why she did not get in touch with me then, she indicated that she had been busy.

It was nice seeing her.

I told Josephine that Mike my "Mental Health Helping" Partner has plans to discharge me from his caseload when he sees me in June. I told her that just the feeling of losing services thru Durham Mental Health Services, makes me feel really scared. Almost a feeling of loneliness. I have been so dependent on his services (nearly 5 years now). I have the feeling that Mike feels that I am "stable" in his own mind, because I am in a good mood every time that he sees me. I guess this could be because he does not see all that goes on at home sometimes, or maybe sub-consciously I hold allot in.

I know that "yes" I am probably more stable than I was 5 years and 9 years ago. But stable per se to the point that I do not need any other mental health services in order to remain a functioning part of society. I feel that if I lose Mike's services altogether that I might get lost some where or that I might one day crash and just the thought of the possibility of this happening , just the knowing of him dropping me from his case-load and knowing that I cannot just pick up the phone and call him - makes me feel sort of helpless.

I do understand that services when it comes to Mental Health are being cut all over. But I do know that the government also some where in Durham Region did give a sizeable amount of money into Mental Health. Could that be at the hospital?

Well, Josephine said that she is going to call and talk Mike. We will just have to wait and see. I would like to try and start going to his groups again. Just wish that ODSP would cover the costs of the groups. That is $20.00 a month... Oh well... they won't because his because DMHS groups are not covered by an Inter Disciplinary Team. I just got to remember each day of the week that goes by , in order to go to the groups though. I seem to sometimes lose and/or forget what day it is from day to day.

Will just have to wait for my appt with Mike June 2nd to come around and see what transpired with his conversation with Josephine.

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Manic Depressive
Mood Disorder
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Mental Illness
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Group Therapy
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