Moving

On May 2nd David and I received an email from the property managed of the building that we are living in that we have to move out of the unit that we are living in, which is a 2 bedroom accessible unit. I was first housed in this unit nearly 10 years ago, at which time, it was originally intended for both myself and my handicapped son to live in and unfortunately this never transpired. Therefore I have been on the internal waiting list for a relocation to a 1 bedroom , non-accessible unit. Unfortunately, we were really only given 1 week, with in which to pack things in the former unit and to move into the one we just moved into on May 21 (we were told that we were to be completely moved out of the former unit by no later than May 22). It is the first time in a very long time, I would say at least nearly 6 years since I have literally flipped. For 4 days last week, I was barely hanging by a thread, I was literally freaking out, this preparation for the move and actual move - mentally I was finding it way too overwhelming, I really felt like I was going to crash like major big time. David really had a difficult time handling my moods these 4 days, he was wondering if the move was really worth it, if he had to deal with my freaking out like this! I almost felt I had and/or was losing control.

My medication was adjusted like nearly 3 years ago, I feel almost reactive to allot of things as of late, my buttons are easily pushed here at home or by other people. As for being able to get to sleep, I have had no problems since moving, as I have been exhausted from the move, but if it were not for the move. I would say I have had great difficulty getting to sleep. The meds I am on now is 100 mg Topomax in the a.m. and at bedtime and 300 mg Seroquel at bedtime. Starting to wonder if I am developing an immunity to my meds. But I really do not want to change to anything else, as it is, Seroquel has made me gain an enormous amounts of weight, Topomax is suppose to make one lose weight, but I have not....

There is still so much to organize in my new place, just do not have the mental stamina to get things in place. I have my bedroom, kitchen and bathroom in order, but as for the livingroom, everything is pretty much in the middle of the livingroom in the way of tons of boxes. Entertainment Centre is set up where it should be and couch and dining table is too, just a bunch of boxes and etc right in middle of the living room floor, and tons of laundry to do. Know going to have get organized soon, as husband hates clutter.

Sometimes I just feel like life moves to damned fast....

Any way, just wanted to let everybody know where I am at this week.

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